My dad is home!
My dad is angry!
My dad is depressed!
My stomach has been in such a tight knot. Just as started to type those words the tears started flowing from my eyes.
My dad was released from rehab on Friday. My sister and brother in law worked out details to help him for the first month just to get a feel on how he is doing. He wants to be alone....he can't be alone!
My brother in law is spending the weekends with him and evenings during the week. My sister will spend two days with him and they also hired some 24 hour care for the times they will not be there with him.
He is mad at us, he is saying that we have deserted him. He doesn't want to pay for the 24 hour care. If he can't be alone he wants us to take care of him. My sister said that he is just sitting in his wheelchair with his arms folded with a scowl on his face. Truthfully, he expects me to leave California and live with him.
He wanted to go home, would not accept any other choice, so they took him home so he could be his house but now that is not good enough. However he is now seeing that he really can't do anything on his own. So even though he was excited to be going home he is now even more disappointed in himself. He really can't walk much at all and he can't even use a walker.
So yesterday they took him to look at an assisted living facility where he has friends that he knows who are living there. They had lived in his community and since moved there because they realized they didn't want to be alone anymore, didn't want to have to cook, etc. Of course his friends are in a different building because they don't need as much care as he does.
It actually sounds lovely. He can get a room that has a bedroom and a sitting room. You also bring your own furniture so you can make it look like home. He doesn't want to sell his house and his dream was always to pass away in his bed at home.
I understand his frustrations, I get the fact that he is angry. I just wish for a minute that he could appreciate the fact that he will turn 94 in June and that he has been blessed beyond measure. Here I sit at 65 years old and have restrictions that he has never had......