FRUH-STREY-SHUHN

frus·tra·tion    [fruh-strey-shuhn]
1. act of frustrating; state of being frustrated: the frustration of the president's efforts.
2. an instance of being frustrated: to experience a series of frustrations before completing a project.
3. something that frustrates, as an unresolved problem.
4. a feeling of dissatisfaction, often accompanied by anxiety or depression, resulting from unfulfilled needs or unresolved problems.

This is how I am feeling right now. I just feel anger running through my veins and I am working hard at putting a smile on my face. I am trying to choose happy!!!!

Do you ever feel like you have been around your family forever yet they don't know a thing about you. Don't we foresee all their needs? Who foresees ours? Why should I have to come home to a totally empty refrigerator. They know I like Unsweetened Almond Milk, Lemons, Romaine Lettuce and Fage 0% Yogurt so you would think that someone could have had some supplies for me when I got home.

There is absolutely no dish soap. My husband added some water to the bottle to get the most out of what was there. Now they all know perfectly well that I use Seventh Generation or Mrs. Meyers which are both available at Target.  There were also no spoons in the drawer because no one ran the dishwasher in the 16 days either while I was gone! The dogs water bowl in the kitchen was also kinda yellow on the bottom. (its not their main bowls, they each have their own in other areas in the house but never the less!)

To top that off I left a simple note with a few things on it. You know my thriving poinsettia from Christmas. The note said give it a 1/4 cup of water twice a week. Well it was swimming in water and apparently it was forgotten about so it was soaked to save its drooping life. There is one pink leaf hanging on for dear life and the green leaves are drooped and lacking in all strength. It made me cry.

And wouldn't it have been nice if someone could have vacuumed before I came home, maybe washed the floors. Also our shower was set up to be cleaned by Amber and it was never done. See I have a hard time with upper body things and cleaners when it comes to my lungs. Even though I feel well I still have many restrictions. There are also some others things I can't list but am extremely upset about.

So I am on strike, let's see if they notice!

I am also a bit down about my weight loss too. I walked a lot, I exercised in the pool almost daily and never once cheated on my diet yet I weigh the same thing I weighed when I left. Here I am on another plateau and I am bummed about it. I just a mess right now :(

Okay on another note there has been a unanimous decision made by the administration of my blog....ME! After going through all the posts in my reader and bringing it down to my most favorite people I have 400+ posts to read. A decision has been reviewed and it may be too difficult of a task for me right now. I do plan on looking at each one but I may not comment on each one. Still wallowing in my self-pity from  the above frustration so please bear with me if you will. I'm thinking I may need to go away again where I am appreciated for the person that I am!

Update: I did my shower on Thursday with the mixture that they talk about on Pinterest and it was amazing. You use equal parts of vinegar and dawn dish detergent. Heat the vinegar in the microwave and mix with the dawn in a spray bottle, shake. I sprayed my shower and left it on for 4 hours but you can leave it on overnight if your want. I think it is excellent.