REGRETS

Do you have any regrets? I have scanned my brain for days now thinking about regrets. Either it's old age or something else but I can't seem to find many. Obviously if I had some at a certain point in my life they certainly are not important anymore. The only thing I have been able to come up with is being a better mother.

I'm not saying that I was a bad mother. I know I did the best I could at the time and from the knowledge I had. I know that going through a divorce when my children were only 4 and 18 months old didn't make me the best parent at the time. I was in my own world of destruction. I feel like I could have done so much more as a parent. I also think that looking back now that many of you will feel this way when your children are 30 and 32. Life is busy, each day can be hectic and sometimes we yell or are preoccupied with other things. That is life. I feel today that this is the reason that God gives us grandchildren. That is when you can just love and appreciate a baby/child without all the responsibilities of everyday life.

This post isn't really about past regrets, it's about a future regret that I don't want to happen. Hopefully I can explain myself well enough so that you fully understand where I am coming from. I need your support here but you have to put yourself into my shoes to fully understand and help me with this.

I am having the most difficult time making a decision about my cameras for my trip. I love my point and shoot camera. It's my second point & shoot (digital) and it takes excellent pictures as far as I'm concerned. Ninety percent of the pictures you see on my blog are with this camera. My Canon Rebel has been my dream of getting that big girl camera. That is what I have always referred to it as. I have had this camera for maybe 7 months now. I take great pictures with it, mainly the close up shots, but I only use the auto setting. I am trying to learn more about it but haven't. I've been reading my Canon Rebel for Dummies book but haven't really taken the time to really learn other things.

Okay, are you in my shoes yet? You need to think of this as maybe your mother or your grandmother. (I know I have several followers who are still as young or younger then my own children) I turn 60 in four months. I have COPD (Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disease) and I am 60 pounds overweight. I am okay walking but when it comes to upper body things I get extremely winded. Over the years I have downsized my purses and carry as little as possible.

I just don't know how I will be carrying my Canon Rebel with me day in and day out for 21 days, besides the other things I have to have with me. I am torn. I don't want to regret taking it with me yet I don't want to regret not taking it with me. I was all sure of myself the other day and made the decision not to take it. (remember that most of my touring will be just me, my husband will be working)

Then I remembered the main reason I wanted to take it. Not because I felt the pictures were that much better but because it has a view finder. Sometimes with the point & shoot, because they don't come with view finders anymore, you get a terrible glare on the screen and can't see what you are doing. I am lost, I don't know how to make this decision. However I do know how hard it is for me to have the camera around my neck just when I am taking pictures around the house! I've been praying very hard about this. (I would not be taking the bigger lens, that's for sure)

I know that you can't really help me with this decision but I value your opinion.

Now don't get me started on what shoes to bring!!!!