LIFE RIGHT NOW "LOTS OF FRUSTRATION"

This is probably going to be long....just so you know! 

Had a CD that was maturing so I called Wells Fargo and worked on it with a woman a few weeks ago. I was supposed to get a letter to sign and mail it back. Well it didn't arrive so 10 days later I called and the person was very helpful. The letter had just gone out. 

However reaching someone was a pain in the ass. I was on hold for 58 minutes before they disconnected me. Then I was on hold for 48 minutes before I spoke the nice lady who helped me. 

We were going to deposit the money into our account and we were nearing the grace period. She told me something I didn't know. If you are 59 1/2 or older you can close out a CD at anytime without penalty. The letter came, I mailed it back in and we will just watch to see if it gets deposited. 

We had to have Spectrum out a few weeks ago to fix our landline phone. While he was here he upgraded a few things. All seemed pretty good for awhile. Then our premium channels went out. Took me three tries before one woman had an idea of what might work. It's something called The Golden Key, they have to request it to be done. 

Next day our channels were back. However we set up an appointment for Wednesday just in case it didn't work. So I cancelled the appointment and wouldn't you know we had an issue on Wednesday! I was in my office, which is off of our bedroom. I was watching TV and I was on my phone. Mark walked into our closet, switched on the light and the Wi-Fi connection went out. 

We had noticed that our signal would go out from time to time since the guy was out here for the phone. Light bulb moment! Closet light was turning off the connection. Router/Modem is in the closet. It use to have just one single plug. Now there were two large plugs. So we took a surge protector, plugged them both into that and so far so good! Wi-Fi hasn't gone out in 24 hours. 

Mark needs to get a MRI on his brain for his left ear. They are thinking there may be a tumor for his hearing loss in that ear. Other ear is fine. Well he hasn't gone yet because of the lockdown. 

I just found something out that upset me and I'm struggling with it. In 2018 I had a mammogram and they found a spot they wanted to check further. We did that at the end of 2018 and it was nothing to be concerned about. 

Got my latest mammogram and received a letter that something needed to be checked further. Took the letter to my doctor in February. He said pick up the CD and take it to Centerlake Imaging. When I took it there they said they had no one to compare them and that your doctor needed to request it. Then someone said you should get a letter in a few weeks. Two different answers. 

So I called my doctors office and told them that he needed to call in the request to have them compared. My letter didn't have any further information. Well guess what, his did! This time it was my right breast which he never mentioned to me. I would have told him it was my left breast before. So I am going to go in May but I hate all of this time wasted and I'm really scared. How many times can we get "it's nothing to be concerned with." 

We are both going on May 13th but I am so concerned about social distancing. It can't really be done in this situation. I will be wearing a mask and the person I'm working with better be wearing a mask. I'm going to ask them if they take their employees temperatures each day. I am high risk and I can't get this virus yet we can't put off these important test. 

My dad's service was on April 9th. My sister and here family were able to be there. They were distanced by family units at the funeral home and everyone was wearing a mask. We were able to watch his service streamed live. 

Just typing this I started crying. Streaming his service was not closer for me. I'm am still struggling with him being gone. It doesn't seem real. I stare at the picture of him in his casket and it doesn't look like him at all. 

Then he was on a flight out the next day to Illinois. He was laid to rest next to my mom in a wall crypt that they have in the mausoleum in Woodlawn Cemetery in Forest Park, IL. 

You know how they say "Be careful for what you ask for", well about 2 months ago I remember saying to my sister "The last thing I want to do is see dad in a casket." I said this because I just didn't want him to leave us. He was truly my best friend and I'm tired of remembering people in their caskets. 

Also I have a stack of sympathy cards which I haven't had the courage to open yet. I remember when my mom passed away 38 years ago, I was busy with the kids and then nine months later Mark walked out on my. The one thing I do know is that I will survive and life does go on.

So how about some good news. We are going to see James tomorrow. The 10ft social distancing is working out great. We bring drinks and snacks so there is not contact between us. This will be our 4th visit. Otherwise I've been in the house for 44 days. Here are a few picks of James at Easter and last weekend. 

On Easter we get together with Gabby's family at a German restaurant and get German pancakes. Didn't happen this year but they ran and got take out so this is James enjoying his pancake! 

I myself finally got motivated yesterday. Been in a big slump. I dusted and vacuumed along with doing other small projects. It felt good to get busy. Today I'm going to start doing my Jane Fonda walk DVD and start using my days to accomplish something other than watching Hallmark movies!