Wednesday, August 17, 2022


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1. August is National Back To School does that make you feel? Share a back-to-school memory. 

Well first of all I liked when school started after Labor Day. I'm glad that my kids got to enjoy that growing up. 

I don't have a lot of memories of my back to school days except for my Kindergarten experience. Sadly, I think I tend to remember bad times rather than good times. I didn't want to go, no way, no how! 

The principle took me to see my sister in her class, my brother in his class and my cousin in her class. Then the nurse drew pictures on the top of my hands with Mercurochrome. I guess I must have gone back to my class because that's all that I remember. 

2. Something you've learned in 'the school of life'? 

I'm drawing a blank yet I know I've learned something!  However, I guess I could say something about politics but we will leave it at that. 

3. Three words to describe your current mood.

Isolation - Frustration - Lonely

4. A summer food you've eaten too much of/are tired of? A summer food you haven't had enough of? 

I don't think I've eaten too much of any summer foods. I wouldn't mind some potato salad, watermelon and maybe a hot dog. 

5. What small stuff do you sweat that you know you shouldn't?

Everything! Sorry about that answer but I recently started seeing a psychiatrist to help me with this small stuff that I sweat. The most common medication are Selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors (SSRIs). So if you are on a blood thinner they are not recommended. So I took the time to see my cardiologist before I moved forward. He said it should be okay. 

So I decided to try the lowest dose which is generally used for children. I have to admit I was feeling my mind being clearer, not going over unnecessary things over and over again. Then I found that I was grinding my teeth and couldn't stop! 

So I had a phone call with her set up and I mentioned this to her. She said I had to stop taking it. Then I Googled it and it's a rare side effect. She basically had nothing else to offer me!!! The grinding has stopped. I am very frustrated with this woman and I will be talking to my primary doctor on Friday. 

I'm supposed to be on a waiting list to see a therapist but I haven't heard anything in 3 months. So yes I have to call. Speaking of that, that is one of the small stuff that I sweat all the time....making phone calls. 

6. Insert your own random thought here. 

There is a good chance we might see James this weekend. Mark has had three consecutive days of negative Covid tests and he feels normal again. Our primary doctor, since Mark had taken Plaxlovid and had the rebound effect suggested the 3 tests and isolation for a few more days and then test again. 

However, his appointment for a colonoscopy which is scheduled for tomorrow had to be cancelled. They want a PCR test done which there isn't time to do. So he will reschedule and this won't be an issue at the next one. 

I do want to apologize for going too deep into some of my answers but I felt I needed to share at this time. 


Joyful said...

Sorry you are suffering from anxiety. I wonder if something natural would help? I'm thinking of Gingko Biloba. I took it many years ago and I found it really helped my focus and concentration and I've read it can help reduce anxiety, treat depression and reduce symptoms of psychiatric disorders (not quite sure what this last benefit is referencing specifically). I've also read that making adjustments to your daily habits like exercise, sleep & diet can help. Exercise can change brain chemistry and help boost mood and it doesn't have to be high impact exercise. Anyway, if you're interest check out some information on medicine or alternative medicine sites. As always with anything, some people suffer adverse reactions but you may be one of the lucky ones. I hope you can find something that will work well for you. All the very best.

Anne in the kitchen said...

I hope you can find a way to lift your anxiety.
I have been in a blue mood lately but it is based in one specific area, which will change, just not as quickly as I would like it to.

Elizabeth "Libby" Day said...

You and Mark have really been through a lot lately and I can understand why you would be depressed. I'm glad you are seeking help, but taking meds can be tricky - as you found out. Perhaps the life-still changes your friend mentioned above would be helpful, but if you can't leave the house, that would be frustrating as well. Know I'm thinking about you and hoping both you and Mark get on the road to full recovery real soon.

MadSnapper said...

I loved school until the 9th grade and from then on dreaded and had bad dreams before and after school started the day after labor day.
It is good to share these side effects with us because someone else might have the same thing and need to be aware of it. this thing you described is what I call my Fretter! it can fret on any and all things, little or big, important or not, the fretter has me running on it like a hamster on a wheel. I shut mine down by reading, and I think you shut yours down with movies. excercise helps me a lot. you don't have to walk or get out of the house. go on youtube and check out chair excercises, and dance to music, pump your arms, stomp your feet to music. I do all of these almost every day. the more you get your blood racing the better your mind will be.

betty said...

I don't think you should apologize, Debby. It is your blog and your thoughts. I hope when you talk to your primary doctor he has another suggestion for you for help with a different med (if available and safe to take) to help with your anxiety/depression since it seemed like the Prozac was helping in that regard. Or another psychiatrist to go to. Here's hoping the testing continues to be negative for Mark so you guys can go and see James this weekend! I know that will be a big boost to you to be able to spend time with him. I too don't like that the schools start so early. I know on the East Coast they still start after Labor Day. I liked that better than going the first part of August. Some schools here even start at the end of July!


Cathy said...

I hope you get to see James this weekend. I just said a prayer for you Debby. Take care!

Chatty Crone said...

Sorry your hubs had to cancel his test - darn covid. So did that medicine help him or not - and did he have side-affects.
You do seem a little down and I hope you do get to see someone. Can you try Lexapro or Paxil? I have done good on those myself.
I saw a therapist when I was younger say in my 30's and 40's and it was the best thing I ever did. If I could find a good one I could afford I would go back - it is so nice to talk to someone. Prayers.
Well I loved school myself and wanted to go.
One life lesson I have learned - and it doesn't sound positive - but it works for me - is to be quiet. I try to help wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy too much. Just listen.
I hope you feel better, hubs gets well, and you can see James this weekend!

Astrid said...

Absolutely no need to apologize for going too deep. I understand depression and anxiety, as I live with them myself. I am so sorry the psychiatrist feels she has no other med options for you. I really hope you can get in to see a therapist real soon. I finally got put on the wait list for one too, which may take several months, but then again I already do see a psych nurse practitioner and take meds.

I am sorry Mark's colonoscopy had to be rescheduled. I don't think I've read about it before, so I hope it's not something urgent that prompted him to need one.

Mevely317 said...

Like others have said, there's NO need to apologize. I admire your candor -- being brave to share your innermost feelings with us. That's what friends are for!
Praying things get better; AND you get to see James!

Carla from The River said...

Hi Debby,
You do not need to apologize. Blog friendships are very real and very important parts of our lives, I am happy you are honest with us. So many people are not, they make it look like everything is perfect, and that can make the rest of us feel even worse, because I think if we all were honest, we all are struggling a little.

I am sending prayers and a Wisconsin Hug!
Keep us updated!

Joyce said...

What a trying time! I hope you are seeing the light at the end of this long dreary tunnel and get to visit with James this weekend. So glad you've stayed well. I hope you are able to connect with a therapist soon. I think sometimes just having a third party listen and bring clarity is helpful. Take care and hang in there!

crackercrumblife said...

It sounds like you have a lot going on right now so it makes sense you would feel anxious. I suffered from anxiety for years and years, and actually started taking a small low dose prescription to help me. That teeth grinding thing though, I am glad you got that figured out! I am glad that your husband is feeling better!

Pamela M. Steiner said...

Hello Debby, Please don't apologize for being open and honest with us. As you can see by the comments, many of us have suffered with similar issues of anxiety and/or depression. These past couple of years in particular have been very difficult for many people. We are all here together to encourage one another and also to pray for each other. We are blessed to have such a place to share our thoughts and feelings and know that others out here will be lifting us up in prayer and sharing good thoughts. I do hope you will be able to find a good therapist soon. And also yes, sometimes a change in our daily habits/routines is really good for us. We have found that having our kids' new store here in town has been such a boost for us. We were getting so set in our ways and not really doing much but the same old thing every day, and having something different to do is like a new lease on life. I know it's different for everyone, but sometimes just a small change in routine can be helpful. I will be thinking of you and praying. (((hugs)))

The Feminine Energy said...

Never apologize for "going too deep", honey. In my opinion that's what these blogs are for.

The middle of last week I started to feel poorly: extreme lethargy, headache, sore throat. Then this past Sunday I started in with the swollen glands in my neck. Well, you know what? I absolutely refused to test for COVID. I know I probably had it but... I wasn't going to test for it & know for certain I had it. Sticking my head in the ground? Yes, probably. But I knew I was heading to oldest daughter's house to pet-sit while they went to Disney World and I wasn't about to cancel on them. I advised oldest a couple weeks ago to stop testing too...because no one with a planned Disney vacation is going to cancel it for a sore matter the reason for the sore throat. You know what I mean? The CDC has cancelled their quarantine recommendation, for exposure to someone else with COVID, so things are starting to relax about it all.

Could it be that some other medication you're on is causing your depression, Debby? Please hang in there and keep pursuing anwers!! And know that you are loved! ~Andrea xoxo

CheerfulMonk said...

Thank you for letting us know how you're doing...blogging would be useless if we had to put up false fronts. Fingers crossed you find something that helps. ❤️

Ann said...

For some reason small things are harder for me to deal with than big things. You aren't alone with phone calls. I have the hardest time making them. I even have to rehearse in my head what I'm going to say before I make the call. It's why it's why it takes me so long to make appointments for anything. I just can't make the phone call.

photowannabe said...

Never apologize for your answers...putting things into words is a part of therapy in itself.
I really never minded back to school but loved it being in Sept. not like now so, so early for every one.
I always got new skirts and sweater sets for start of school and of course the first day, when I worn it would be the hottest day of the truly was a "sweater".
I learned to trust my GUT and the prompts in my mind. It saved me some heart ache along the way.
Tired,satisfied with the things I accomplished yesterday and today..I know that's more than 3 words...
Watermelon..haven't had enough. They have been $6-7 in the stores..too expensive for me.
Hope you get the appoints you want with the doctors you like.
I don't like making phone calls either.

Jennifer said...

I'm sorry you are feeling isolated and lonely. Praying that the week ahead will bring some unexpected blessings - and reminders of His goodness and presence!!

Michelle said...

Hi Debby,

Wow, your answers could be my answers. I am finally on some meds that work. My hubby wants to retire, one day, and I was on Vraylar which was going to cost us 1,000 monthly. So, my doctor switched me to a generic med. and so far it is working.

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